yes... today is such a gloomy day... i dont mean my mood but more like the weather.. almost as if the clouds were sooo heavy with all the rain that didnt fall... Such a gd weather to sleep.. hahahaha
n now.. i realised.. im actually stuck at a crossroad.. shld i or shld i not move forward... or pick right or left... *headache* well.. at least now i kinda understand what i really wanna do with my life... really wanna thank my colleagues for advising me and supporting me all the way even though i've only known them for like 3 mths... maybe cuz im young ba.. they kinda understand wat stage im going through..
i wanna work towards my goal.. but i have no idea how... since i dun really know anyone hu would choose this path... hmmmx~ maybe i can start with mini courses first... but its kinda hard to take the first step... part of me enjoys being stuck at the crossroad due to the comfort n safety of it... part of me wans to venture out of the comfort zone... sheesh i hate making such decisions... kinda admire all those who are still studying... T_____T
oh well.. i guess i shld stay positive always... but its kinda hard now... since i know im nt really cut out to be in admin... T_________T cuz im nt exactly very organized... n im very soft when it comes to request... so.. i kept getting pushed ard w/o me knowing until someone points it out to me that im being bullied... ^^;;;; guess im kinda slow when it comes to this... n i dont really mind... @@;;;
oh.. i havent said wat i really wanted to do.. hahahaha i'll leave it for the next post... but i've told someone before what i wanted to do.. n shes pretty skeptic about it.. which i dun blame her.. cuz its really nt easy... ^^
